WHAT AM I DOING? WHAT HAVE I DONE?

okay so now the dramatics are out the way, i'm worried about the following things:
Presentation
Creative CV
Aesthetic
Is what I want to do just dull cause I've thought about it too long or is it just dull?????

I'm very vulnerable and I hide it too well.

I want to be raw in this presentation but I don't know if it's appropriate or if people would deal.

Also I wanna change all my shit every 5 minutes cause why not?

I'm trying to use my ppp blog for a rawer and more truthful look at my professional practice and how I can work out my worries and stresses about evolving as a professional.

I feel so further from what I wanted to be at the beginning of 1st year and that scares me.
I know for a fact that I'm gonna be even further in my ambitions and goals next year.
fuck.